For years my dreams remained a peculiar occurrence of being alive. I
could not make much out of them and only occasionally would seek
interpretations that were never that satisfactory, so I disregarded
writing them down - I simply did not see the value in doing so.
Sharing them was also bizarre, people around me stared at me
blank-faced; what else is new?
At some point around the
year 2000, circumstances in my life began appearing purposeful,
predestined, and unmistakably sacred, and they started showing in my
dreams with extraordinary clarity and precision. I felt compelled to
write them down, but it was overwhelming; I drifted into other
dimensions at every turn, and after a few years I was beyond
exhausted. I felt forced to partially close my connection because I
did not know how to manage my energy.
On January 1, 2016,
while in a magical town near Mexico City, I woke up knowing I had
been reminded to keep documenting my dreams, but difficult periods
continued to create gaps in my records. I am certain it was not the
only time this happened, though, of course, I did not document the
previous ones and cannot remember if there were subsequent
reminders. Still, I didn’t pay that much attention until the COVID
Summer of 2020; while in isolation I had nothing else to do and
turned my attention to it.
Quite an undertaking it turned out to be! From dawn to dusk, I spent
three months reviewing my notes and creating a rudimentary catalog
with an ineffective color-coding system.
I started by
writing down the dreams that had left an indelible mark on me,
although I am sure I had lost vast amounts of details by then. Then
I read every journal I had ever written, went through years of
WhatsApp conversations with friends to locate dates, and retrieved
backups of e-mails I no longer used.
To my complete
frustration, I repeatedly found something like “I had been dreaming
with XXX, I need to tell you!” or “I dreamt with you last night, it
was awesome, let’s talk!” No, not funny. Then it dawned on me.
In
all those years it never occurred to me that in time I would have
the tools and the context to unravel them, and now I know that
looking back on your dreams, with the eyes of the New You, turns
them into some kind of treasure: being consistent in the
documentation is essential.
Nevertheless, despite my wavering discipline, by August 2020 I managed
to create my repository with 650 references. Not every reference is a
dream, some are encounters with the essence of energies, some are a
knowingness, and many are actual stories.
When I completed
the task, I then created a worksheet to see how my dreaming activity had
evolved over the years – a completely manual and tedious process, but
enlightening. I realized that what matters most with dreams are the
stories that they build over time. And I found out that being able to
register and analyze dreams with the appropriate tool is essential, too.
From doing all of this I also learned what was relevant to document,
and what one should be looking for when writing one's dreams
down. Now I pay close attention, and do not hesitate to put in the
effort; in only a couple of years I have added 230 references (yes,
I had to count them one by one) and the exploration continues to be
fascinating to me.
As for the catalogue, when I want to
use my dreams to write stories, I don’t necessarily find what I am
looking for easily. As of April 2022, I have read the original 650
and the additional 230 several times looking for specific things – I
read all of them, each time! I now know that using consistent
tagging makes it so much easier.
Finally, I needed to share!… with whomever was willing to listen, so
I started a blog on Medium in October of 2020. I have been finding
my voice ever since through writing stories that are relevant to me,
and that I figure may be relevant to someone else in the future.
I
am aware that the amount of experiences in dreams that faded away
over the years is astonishing; do not let that happen to you, and
frankly, don’t miss the opportunity to share your magic with the
world, and inspire us all. If you don't do it here, where else?
Finally, I needed to share!… with whomever was willing to listen, so I
started a blog on Medium in October of 2020. I have been finding my
voice ever since through writing stories that are relevant to me, and
that I figure may be relevant to someone else in the future.
I
am aware that the amount of experiences in dreams that faded away over
the years is astonishing; do not let that happen to you, and frankly,
don’t miss the opportunity to share your magic with the world, and
inspire us all. If you don't do it here, where else?
Interestingly enough, the passion is beyond dreams, it's fundamentally about bridging realities. I am all for it and hope you are, too. Welcome to the adventure!
Even with a reservoir of over a thousand dreams, cataloged over
the course of +20 years, it hurts to acknowledge that countless
formidable experiences faded away because of lack of time,
exhaustion, trying periods, indolence, and my unawareness of how
important it was to document them, and do so appropriately. Many
things you can revisit, rescue, and retrieve, but not dreams.
I
now know that dreams make fantastic stories over time and they
allow you to take a meaningful in-depth look at your inner world
and the makings of reality. Furthermore, some dreams are pearls of
wisdom and it is a clear dreamer’s duty to document them for the
world.
Dreams inform and transform you in a way few
things can, and when looking back at them, with the eyes of the
new you, they turn into some kind of treasure.
Even with a reservoir of over a thousand dreams, cataloged over
the course of +20 years, it hurts to acknowledge that countless
formidable experiences faded away because of lack of time,
exhaustion, trying periods, indolence, and my unawareness of how
important it was to document them, and do so appropriately. Many
things you can revisit, rescue, and retrieve, but not dreams.
I
now know that dreams make fantastic stories over time and they
allow you to take a meaningful in-depth look at your inner world
and the makings of reality. Furthermore, some dreams are pearls of
wisdom and it is a clear dreamer’s duty to document them for the
world.
Dreams inform and transform you in a way few
things can, and when looking back at them, with the eyes of the
new you, they turn into some kind of treasure.
On June 6, 2011, the first night of Crimson Circle's Keahak I,
I spent all morning between sleep and awake, avoiding the fact that
I had just quit smoking. We had been asked to come up with a Keahak
name, and mine was built that morning, in a couple of hours within
the dream state, without the participation of my conscious mind.
Back then I wrote: "It sounds so far away, produces goosebumps
and me wanting to take a deep breath: ‘Aberdeem’.”
Angels
were assisting me in building the name. The first part was clear:
Aber. In that state it reminded me of the brand Abercrombie &
Fitch, so I thought it was nice. But there was this back and forth
between Aberdeen and Aberdeem, whoever was coaching me wanted to
make sure that I was clear about the final letter: an "m,"
in this case. Yes, they asked and I was positive, my Keahak name
should be Aberdeem.
The suffix seemed Arabic and later
on, as I Googled my new name, and found out that there is a city in
Scotland by the name of Aberdeen (with an N).
There was
nothing else I could relate my name to. I only knew how it felt:
"From far away, like elfin, like forest and fresh, nor feminine
or masculine, like autumn in the northern USA, like apples, too. It
is open, clear, frank, kind of pure, white… it is me, it is
mine."
Aberdeem
A journey into conscious dreaming. More than 20 years of documented dreams and counting.
"This idea, this concept of yours to have a platform for people
around the world, to discuss the dreams, to post their dreams, to
talk about their dreams, and it’s not really about their dreams.
It’s about dreaming. What is dreaming?
It’s about
delivering now an understanding of dreams that simply isn’t on the
planet right now. And it doesn’t have to get terribly metaphysical,
woo-woo or anything like that. People are really searching for
meaning in their dreams."
